Have you ever felt like you don't desire God? You don't feel like praying, worshipping, going to church, reading your Bible, fellowshipping with other christians, etc. Yeah? Okay, I see you nodding. Can I be honest with you? So have I. I heard that incredulous gasp *side eye* LOL. Seriously though, more times than I can count, I have felt that way. I don't know about other Christians, but my walk with God is not all rainbows and kittens. There are times when I don't want to pray, read my Bible, or go to church. I just wanna chill. Can I be completely honest with you? Not desiring God is a feeling I am all too familiar with. In 2011, I took a "break" from God. For about 3 months, I didn't go to church or read my Bible and I didn't spend time with God. I was max chilling (or so I thought). Thank God for his unfailing love and grace.
One thing I have learned is to ignore my feelings. I have learned that what I need to do in times like that is to
push past my emotions. I love listening to worship.I can just sit in my room for hours doing that. Worship draws me closer to the heart of God. I also really like spending time with other christians. So when I feel like I am in a rut, I listen to worship songs or/and I call my christian friends and talk to them about it and they just love on me and encourage me. Do what works for you. Whatever you do, do not just sit and fold your arms, waiting to be in the mood to spend time with God. Go before God and tell Him how you feel. He sees your heart.
It is very important to be intentional about your relationship with God. I think of it this way. When I am married by God's grace, I will be intentional about my marriage. I understand that marriage is not a bed of roses, and it's work but I intend to fight for it because I want to make it work. How much more God? I see my relationship with Him the same way. It's not always fun but I have to be intentional.I have learned not to wait to pray or read my Bible until I feel like it. Push past your feelings .Faith it till you make it.
Think hard about it. Are you intentional about watching Scandal, Person of Interest, Suits, Criminal Minds when it airs but you don't have time for God? Do you make sure not a day goes by without talking to your boyfriend/girlfriend/bestfriend but haven't talked to God in days, weeks, months, years? You no longer desire Him. Why don't you go before him now (not later) and ask Him to change your heart. Purpose in your heart to be intentional about your relationship with Him.
I do hope you realize that I am not criticizing you. This post is not coming from a place of judgement, but from a place of love. I just want everyone to have an awesome relationship with God because He really is so amazing. I know we all want to be with Him forever in heaven but it starts with a relationship with Him here on earth.
Don't give up! It's not too late. Keep on keeping on! Faith it till you make it!
God help us all
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My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”
And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.”
Psalm 27:8
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